Made the call yesterday. Blood work is going to be done on Friday.
I got a B on my Chem Exam. I'm actually pretty happy about that.
I was appointed Historian for the appointed board position! The one board position I have always wanted in band council during high school, I FINALLY HAVE IT IN COLLEGE, BUT FOR A DIFFERENT GROUP. I'm very happy, but I have to do a lot now.

*After making a scene at the Jazz Kitchen and finding out that I have Onew on the wallpaper of my phone*

1: ...He looks like a girl.
2: ...No he doesn't.
1: Let me rephrase that. he IS a girl.
2: and that makes you?
1: What- HEY.
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1: So...what do you like about him that makes him worthy of being on your phone?
2: he reminds me of you.
1: tch. Not even.
2: no, really he does.
1: Really? How so?
2: Well, he looks like you. Except chinky, and not brown and Korean. Another difference also is coz he is older than me. He's about 20. He's the leader of a group.
1: Oh? So he's a singer.
2: Yeah. He also sings well. Kind of like you.
1: Heh, I don't sing well.
2: I think you do.
1: What else...
2: When he smiles, he reminds me of you.
1: I... see.
2: Did I make you jealous?
1: ... no
2: I can change it if it makes you feel better.
1: No, if you like it, then you can keep it.
2: Look, as much as he reminds me of you, he isn't you.

I talked to my parents about switching my treatment for my psoriasis. I told them that the light box treatment works, but at a slow pace, and when I get stressed out, I break out really bad. I didn't want that anymore. I decided to switching to injections instead to help my psoriasis. My dad read it over, since he has his medical knowledge and knows what will happen more than I will.

My dad called me me over and read it all and told me what the down sides to this treatment. He said I would be prone to infection, and I could vulnerable to cancers later on in my life. I was very aware of that when I talked to my doctor about it, I just didn't have the heart to tell my parents I could be developing the one thing that killed one of their parents. I told my dad that I would go through the treatment, because I knew what would happen and I'm ready for something different. I'm risking the same thing when I went through the light box treatment, minus the internal infection. So, here it goes. I have to make the call soon.

on a brighter note...
my obsession grows... *KYAAAAAAAAAA* SHINEE'S COMBACK IS IN APRIL. OMGGG <3

I saw Michael, the same Michael I met....a few weeks back. And he was walking with Tommy, who is Aaron's friend. I suddenly started playing this whole chain of people who might know each other. @_@

seriously :( I think I failed my Philosophy exam. errrg. Kill me.

On a bright note... circle K meeting was fun. I like those meetings. I really glad I joined. Alex told me that Lisa wanted me to be historian. I wasn't too sure until I went over to give Lisa a hug, and she looked at me and said "I want you to be historian."

Oh man...
I think this is what is my punishment for eating cake during Lent.
Forgive me father for I have sinned...

*April's alarm rings and plays "Noona Nomu Yeppo" (Noona you're so pretty) by SHINee.*
Kat: I like that song. Is that your song for your alarm when you wake up?
April: Yeah, it is. How nice would it be to wake up to someone singing "noona nomu yeppo"?

She's got a point.

*listens to it on repeat*

"Kat, what does it mean to be in love?"
"...Nigel, I think you're asking the wrong person here..."

"Well, I'm okie Sunday, but I have to check. Monday morning-1 coz I have class at 1:30. Friday 2-4 possibly. Saturday is reserved for you. So which is good for you?"

"Can I have them all? :3 "

"Are you busy this weekend?"
"This weekend...yes. Why?"
"Because I'm back and want to see your tubular face :D "

I told him that I would like to see him next weekend since this weekend is full of studying for my three exams this coming week.

After reading his texts so many times, it makes me want to see him now.

Today marks 21 months together.

I was sent a little from school about applying for a student cultural exchange program. I have to apply and I will be staying in Japan for 2 weeks.

I want to do this, but I don't know if I can.
Gawd, I want to go.

I can't wait to see you.

I can't take Physio anymore coz the teacher I want will not be teaching it!
There better be something good coming out of this coz I'm pissed off right now >:(

A lot more fun. Mingled with others, even though everyone had different names, trying to remember the facts of other people.

Got the agenda when are the next events. It is really starting to bother me that I can't make it to any of this month's events...well, maybe the blood drive and the Easter basket making thing. I have time for like...30 minutes. I think. I really want to do something though. I have my schedule, but at least it is able to fit in the club meetings and make me not want to go to Philosophy anymore. Stupid Philosophy. T_T

... I'm not feeling well. I should go sleep now...

I may be a little dramatic, but I'm considering of canceling my facebook account. It is annoying me how my aunts and uncles would snoop on there and start asking me questions in real life. I know it is a public networking site, but I can not help but feel annoyed when I am being bombarded with questions of "What does this mean?" when my status is in Japanese (so glad I took that instead of spanish. It is like a secret language with me now...). Oh yes, and you tell my father about my boyfriend being on my facebook. Yes, that is true. And now my dad wants to add me just to keep tabs. He tells me "Don't de-friend me, okay?" and I'm banging my head against the dinner table. Thanks, Dad. Way to keep an eye on me. As if you don't trust me enough already. I'm already mad at my father enough.
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We talked. More like we texted each other until the time switch. Thinking about it now, I guess my angry entries are very selfish. I wanted his worry to go away, because then it made me worry, then there's this whole snow ball affect. Not fun. As much as I don't like to be pried open about how I feel, it happened, but I didn't resist. It was kind of rough, considering we never talked like this before, and when we do, it often becomes extremely awkward and we don't know what to do afterward. Lucky for us, it was just sleep. I'm not sure what else I should say other than I'm glad we talked. I'm weird, I know.
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Did anyone catch the fight on Saturday? It was a tad boring in my opinion :< . Clottey, in my my opinion had the weight on his side. He couldn't really made teh fight interesting if he just jabbed at Pacman and took a chance. and DAMN, how can Pacman keep throwing those punches left and right. And...there's the double punch. He's never going to live that down. But yeah... that's...just my 2 cents about all that.

I know that the picture is SHINee related, but I'm looking for more of how the picture is taken (...and maybe Onew. But I swear, this time it's the composition of the picture). This looks like a lot of fun when someone is taking it. Possibly photoshop? Maaaybe. I really like this sort of thing. Mid-air pictures. I remember one of the disneyland pictures, Nigel caught a lot of air in the picture like MinHo or Key in this one. I kind of want to do that kind of picture.


I've thought of family portrait, since my elementary school friends are like a family. I'm a maknae LOL.

I've also thought of a theme/series for my friends. It's called "Blank at heart". I don't have much of a good theme name for it, but I like it. I want them to display what they are at heart. For example, if I were to do it, it would be "Kid at Heart" or "Romantic at Heart" or "Dreamer" or "Musician" or "Nerd". etc. Yes, I've thought this through. This one would have to be with the white background deal coz... I like it like that. It would be a lot better. Attire wise, I don't know...I have to bring props for this.

and of course, the solo portraits...
all this will be watermarked and possibly edited ~_~;;;
YES, I CAN FINALLY DO THIS.

- I got a letter from Nami! We're going to video chat this Friday :) I miss her so much!
- I might be doing a photo shoot with DBC that include lights and a white sheet/background. YES, I FINALLY GET TO DO THIS SORT OF THING. I'M SO EXCITED.
- WARNING TMI: The psoriasis on my back is clearing up. Just the upper back though. Lower back needs some work, but I'm so glad that my upper back is clearing up. So so so happy.

I'm pretty sure I bombed my Geography test today. I'm terrified, but at the same time, I'm okie with it, considering I have a few more tries to finally get my grade up... Or I pray so. I will do better!

I met some new people. 2 of them are art majors, the other...is...I don't know. 2 of them are Nigel's friends and the other is a friend of a friend. We ended up talking for about an hour or so, just standing in the wind as we shiver. Darren, one of Nigel's friends, kept talking about how he ha slost motivation for the rendering class...LOL and another one of Nigel's friends, Justin, was talking about all these different stories that happened a long time ago, and we ended up talking about their art projects and how their test today was to draw a choo choo train using orthographic projections (I used this is architecture. Believe it or not, it doesn't help much). ...then again, who says Choo Choo Train anyway? I just call it the train... They were talking about their schools and such or where they wanted to go. Then Just told us where he lived...which was kind of awkward. LOL. They're funny guys. One of them, Justin's friend, his name is Michael, he wasn't really wearing a sweater, so I asked him if he was cold and he was like "no. Do you see goosebumps on my arm?" and I looked and said no and he said "er, don't mind my hairy arms...for an asian...or my dry skin..." and I proceeded to laugh more. They were pretty each to get along with. Like, easy to talk to I guess? I hope I get to see them more. They're funny.

Despite the long day in lab for a lecture (LOL) and bombing my Geography exam, I was...pretty content/happy today. And I'm kind of glad. Really this time. Now I have to study for Statistics and do...homework I should have done a long time ago...

I was literally running after eating lunch with Cohleen today. I thought I was going to be late, but I ended up being there... while everyone was waiting to go in? I saw Alex and immediately went to him, considering he was probably the only person I knew in that club. I am willing to make more friends this semester...

I was reunited with Lisa after a year and a half of not seeing each other. She was in my English IA Honors class last year during Fall. It was so nice and refreshing to see a friendly face there and the fact that she still remembered me. Then again, we kept in touch through deviantART and now facebook. Now, I'll be seeing her more and more.

Everyone seems nice, even though I just met one person. I'm already filling out an application for a board position (already?? Well, they need a historian. I never got Historian while I was in band, might as well try this out). My only concern about this club is that I'm not sure if I can make it to all the events. I hope I can though. I would really like to. I think I'll try to get platoon leader as well. Maybe. (Haha, platoon leader).
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Now how does this make me feel??
Well, I don't know. A part of me feels like I am taking on more than I cans handle and maybe I'm going crazy. Why is that? I don't know I know this familiar anxiety that I started going for many things coz I wanted to keep my mind busy. Very busy. This familiar anxiety reminds me of when Aaron and I broke up and I started going for all these positions-- Senior Class Historian, Yearbook, Drum Major, Fine Arts VP, and I think at some point I wanted to take all AP classes. Yeah... you start doing thinsg when your mind (and possible mental state...if present at the moment), is kind of unstable. I did all those things to forget about him. And now I'm doing all these things so whatever is bothering about me and him will just...not...be...in my head. Just to keep myself busy when he's busy, I guess. At the same time I feel kind of bad. Why? I don't know. Maybe because I am only thinking about myself at the moment. But if I think about it...I need this club for brownie points for Nursing school too... eck. I hate being me...

Did I mention I screwed up my knees again? I...prolly shouldn't haven't took all my frustration and disappointment and what ever the hell has been inside me and just took out on the pad.
Steve noticed and I told him that Iw as angry and I haven't slept in a while and all...whatever I just said up there. He told me to take it easy and...not...hurt my partner. He, then, proceeded to go to my partner and say "SHE'S IN A BAD MOOD. TRY NOT TO PISS HER OFF ANYMORE THAN SHE ALREADY IS". Thanks, Steve -_-.

Me: This made me smile for the first time this weekend. And this is without laughing.
Me: I hope it makes you smile too.
I posted this on my facebook. Fabian suggested it to me after I sent it to him. So I did. I don't know how many people watched it after I posted it, but I hope people smiled.
Now I post it here.
To those of you who come across my blog and watch this video, I hope you smile too! :)

My brother and I showed her Chacaron and Trololololololololo .
I love seeing the expressions on her face when she sees something stupid.
I think it just made my day
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Kat: *walks out when she hears "Sorry Sorry" by Super Junior on TFC* ... *starts dancing*
Mom: Hey! That's what they're dancing on TV!
Kat: Yeah! I know how to dance it!
Mom: HAHAHA *laughs*
Kat: DON'T JUDGE ME.

I know I hate to be pried open, but for just once in my life I want you to do it.
Maybe because I want you to worry about me. I want you worry why I don't sleep. I want you to worry why I am upset. I want you to ask why I am sad.

But that's just selfish of me to think that way.

I was up til 2 AM, venting, crying, and figuring.
This time, I wasn't alone to figure and make sense what is wrong.
Thanks, Unnie.

Him: Don't take this wrong, but always seem unhappy. I mean, if you love him, that's great, but I want to see you happy. HAPPY. SO STOP BEING SAD.

and I'm afraid that if I say something wrong, it will break.

*all the tito and titas are talking about their farmville stuff on facebook*
Kat: *walks in* HEY! DO ANY OF YOU PLAY WORD CHALLENGE?! Are any of you guys nerdy like me?!
*silence*
Kat: ...

Sifu: Karen! Go with Irvin!
Irvin: *walks over to Kat*
Kat: Hi. My name is not Karen.
Irvin: Oh...really?
*after wrestling*
Irvin: So what is your name actually?
Kat: I'm KC.

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Sifu ...keeps calling me Karen. I kind of figured if Sifu can't really remember my name...I might as well fix it for everyone else =_=

I also feel like I live different lives with these nicknames. It totally depends where it is used and stuff. Like my first name, Katrina, is used to others who don't know me too well and teachers. Camille is used for my family in the Philippines so they don't get messed up with KC Concepcion =_=. Kat is used by close friends and people who have known me in high school (I wasn't really known as Kat in high school until my junior/senior year of high school). KC is used among family members. Strictly family only because I've known them to call me by that name and only that name. That name is also used in IMB because my dad introduced me as KC. I don't like it, but oh well. I get used to it, I guess...

Tomorrow, I'll be signing up for my first club on campus.

I'm suddenly thinking this is all a big mistake.