Tuesday, June 30, 2009

This is something I have always known, but never fully experienced (I'm about to brace myself for the impact when September comes along...). I've heard that long distance relationships are hard, especially when the two of you are so far apart. Of course, it hurts that you can't see each other so much anymore, and if you two are across the country or world, time difference could be a problem. But with technology these days with web cams, internet, e-mails, long distant calling, it seems like the traditional letters are a thing of the past.

But I always wondered if distance is a problem and a reason to break up? I've had a few friends in long distand relationships and some of them broke up because of that distance and lack of communication or visual...aid (for lack of a better word). A friend and his girlfriend broke up twice because of that distance, and it kind of makes me a bit skeptical to break up because of the same reason. I always though you kind of need to deal with that distance and overcome it in order to really...well...make it work. Also, I've always been told that distance makes the heart grow fonder. I guess when two people do not see each other for a very long time (mmm, let's say about two months), voices, pictures, prolly even webcam chats, make up for it. Just the small things can make a great deal. Its like those old World War II moments when the men were coming home to their wives. The women and men would embrace each other, telling each other how much they missed and love each other.

A cousin of mine has a girlfriend in the Philippines. I can't remember how they met, and how long they have been dating (i think two years...), but they're still going strong. he stays up late to study, and to call her on the other side of the world. They have facebook, myspace, maybe even video chat. He visits her every year to celebrate a year of their being together. I used to spend a lot of time with my cousin, and I have never been so devoted to a girl. He wouldn't look at another girl, and he would always talk about her.

My parents worked out a 10 year long distant relationship. Sometime around 80's I guess. I never really asked them because I feel like I'm prying open something I shouldn't. My mom was here in the US of A, with her family in Chicago and eventually migrated to Cali. My dad was in the Philippines trying to finish up medicine. My dad told me that they used to send letters to each other often, and Mama told me she would try to come back home (the Philippines), whenever she can (which was ever 2 or 3 years). But I keep thinking about it, and I wonder how they were able to stick it out. I mean, 10 years and just moments in time where they were able to see each other. Its like the Notebook. Noah wrote to his lover every day for a whole year. Serious dedication and a lot of love.

When I hear my parents' story, I always think "wow...that must've been painful." I can't really say much except that I can only imagine how hard that would be, and I can't say a lot because I haven't experienced it myself.

Papa reminds me that when Aaron goes to San Diego, it will be hard for the two of us. I told him that I understand what will happen soon. I mean, it isn't as bad as the Philippines where I have very little contact of him and what not. I'm lucky enough to have him only two hours away (3 depends on traffic).

...Yeah. O_O;
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Wednesday, June 24, 2009




Almost two years ago, while I was in high school, my friend and I used to exchange notes. Among those notes were lyrics that we could relate to. We would dissect lyrics, finding out which chunk of the lyrics would relate to use, and which ones we could through out the window. It was fun, and it helped a lot when it came down to expressing ourselves. She gave me an idea that I should dissect lyrics and post em up here. She suggested that it may help me let some of how I feel out of my body. Perhaps... this will help. So, along with my fun lyrics post, I will also be dissecting some of em...

"Hear Me Out"

I join the queue on your answerphone
And all i am - is holding breath
Just pick up i know you're there
Can't you hear - i'm not myself
(well, techinically, its just beem messages via facebook and such. I asked him something on Monday, and it is now Wednesday and I do not have an answer. For the most part, I still need to talk to him about something that making my heart crack).

Oh go ahead and lie to me
You could say anything
Small talk will be - just fine
(Yeah, he only sent me a small answer, telling me he'll double check. I'm still waiting, and my heart is still cracking).
Your voice is everything
We owe it to love
And it all depends on you
(I always believed that the small things could make a world of difference--especially if distance plays a role. I mean, if you haven't seen or heard of you significant other in a very long time, it makes you day when you get a call from them. I don't know, I sort of experienced this like.. during fall semester.)

Chorus: So listen up - this sun hasn't set
I refuse to believe that it's only me feeling
(Maybe he's feeling something as well. Maybe... he seems so stoic sometimes...)
Just hear me out - i'm not over you yet
(well, we're not broken up. Although...it sort of feels like it. I don't know.)
It's love on the line can you handle it?
( I don't know. Can I? Can HE?)

So how do i do normal?
(LOL who can?)
The smile i fake - the permanent wave of
Cue cards and fix it kits
Can't you tell - i'm not myself
( I sometimes wonder if he read me still. I'm pretty easy to read anyway. I don't know...)

I'm a slow motion accident
Lost in coffee rings - and fingerprints
I don't - wanna feel - anything
But i do
And it all comes back to you
(jsakjhslkjksjdldaj very true.)

Chorus


So listen up
Look at me straight
Just hear me out
Don't make me wait
I'm not myself
I can't take this
Love's on the line
Is that your final answer
(he's making me wait. I want to tell him how i feel. I want him to understand, and well, I hope he does...)

I join the queue on your answerphone
And all i am - is holding breath
Just pick up i know you're there......
(I see you online. Why won't you talk to me? If you don't want to go, then just tell me, but just let me say something then...)

Chorus



In irony to this post publication... he finally messaged me back with an answer... wonderful LOL ...

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Tuesday, June 23, 2009
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I need my rubber band.
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Saturday, June 20, 2009
Just to let you know, if I really don't have anything else to post up, if I don't want to post anything about my day or whatever (=O=);, I'll just post up lyrics with a pretty picture :)
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Modern Nature by Sondre Lerche

The moment has come to face the truth
I'm wide awake, and so are you
Do you have a clue what this is? (I don't know)
Are you everything that I miss? (I don't hope so)
We'll just have to wait and see (Wait, and see)
If things go right we're meant to be

The surface is gone, we scratched it off
We made some plans, and let them go
Do you have the slightest idea (No, I don't)
Why the world is bright with you here? (Oh, is that so?)
Stay a while and wait and see (wait, and see)
If things go right we're meant to be


Oh, what a world this life would be
Forget all your technicolour dreams
Forget modern nature
This is how it´s meant to be

The time is here for being straight
It´s not too early and never too late
People say I should watch my pace (What do they know?)
"Think how you spend all your days" (They all say so)
They´ll just have to wait and see (Wait, and see)
If things go right they´ll have to agree

Oh, what a world this life would be
Forget all your technicolour dreams
Forget modern nature
This is how it´s meant to be

Do you have the slightest idea (No, I don't)
Why the world is bright with you here? (Oh, is that so?)
Stay a while and wait and see (wait, and see)
If things go right we're meant to be

Oh, what a world this life would be
Forget all your technicolour dreams
Forget modern nature
This is how it´s meant to be

Forget modern nature
This is how it´s meant to be



(This is the ending credits/song of the movie).
Those of you who haven't seen this...why are you still here? GO WATCH IT >(


Forget Modern Nature, this is how it's meant to be...
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Thursday, June 18, 2009

Vegas Skies by The Cab (THANK YOU LIVIA for introducing me to them ).
It's twelve o'clock
And I need your attention
It's like the alcohol
Making my head spin
Your scent is the rum
The room is a bottle
Keeping me hopeless
Till I wake tomorrow

And if tonight
Ever makes a difference
The way that I feel
The way that I'll remember it
I'll take this down
Till the glass remains
Swallow the words
That I was meant to say

It's a long drive
Back to Vegas skies
So why don't I
Make one more wrong turn tonight?

So say goodnight
Our first goodbye
I've only got forever
And forever is fine
Just take your time
We'll stop the clock together
And know that the timing was right

All of these guards
They stand tall and defensive
Putting up walls around
What once was innocent
They won't let me in
But I'm stronger than that
'Cause you stole my eyes
And I've never looked back

Girl, last night
I forgot to mention
The way that I feel
The way that I'll remember this
When we're this young
We have nothing to lose
Just a clock to beat
And a hand to choose

It's a long drive
Back to Vegas skies
So why don't I
Make one more wrong turn tonight?

So say goodnight
Our first goodbye
I've only got forever
And forever is fine
Just take your time
We'll stop the clock together
And know that the timing was right

It's a long way down
Just fall into place
And you'll fall into me
We'll make it out, you'll see

So say goodnight
Our first goodbye
I've only got forever
And forever is fine
Just take your time
We'll stop the clock together

And say goodnight
Our first goodbye
I've only got forever
And forever is fine
Just take your time
We'll stop the clock together
And know that the timing was right
--
I've had that song on repeat when I couldn't go to sleep last night.
Maybe I should stop listening to lyrical music when I'm trying to sleep.
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Come Back To Me by David Cook
You say you got to go and find yourself
You say that you're becoming someone else
Don't recognize the face in the mirror looking back at you

You say you're leaving as you look away
I know there's really nothing left to say
Just know I'm here whenever you need me
I will wait for you

So I let you go
I set you free
And when you've seen what you need to see
When you find you
Come back to me

Take your time
I won't go anywhere
I picture you with the wind in your hair
I'll keep your things right where you left them
I'll be here for you

I'll let you go
I'll set your free
And when you've seen what you need to see
When you find you
Come back to me

I hope you find everything that you need
I'll be right here waiting to see
You find you
Come back to me

I can't get close if you're not there
I can't get inside if there's no soul there
I can't face you
I can't save you
It's something you have to do

So I'll let you go
I'll set you free
And when you've seen what you need to see
When you find you
Come back to me
Come back to me
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Sunday, June 14, 2009
I knew this would happen. Just not sure how it would.

My cousin recently introduced me to The Vitamin String Quartet. VSQ does covers of many of the main stream music, and they have also made tributes to many bands such as Radiohead, My Chemical Romance, Nirvana, and much more. They have their individual ones as well, which makes me happy when i listen to it. I've recently bought their rendition of the Jack and Sally montage, which was originally written by Danny Elfman. It was very different from the original song (other than 4 string instruments were playing the song instead of a full orchestra). I made a small playlist on playlist.com of their music. I went crazy when I heard their cover on "Hand Down" by Dashboad Confessional. So far, I'm loving their cover of "I Miss You" by Incubus. Hahaha... yes, I am strange...

I always get so nostalgic this time of year. I though New Years was bad; this is worst. :| Especially when I have a whole playlist that is dedicated to last summer's adventures and stuff. It's an odd feeling to be remembering everything like how you felt that first moment or something. I don't know. Nostalgia is my problem as well as insomnia.

I'm always so used to being so busy studying, drafting and doing stuff on Auto CAD, that now that I have a week break, I feel like I can't be doing NOTHING. Although, I do have a busy week ahead of me.

Monday: Taxi-ing Nigel, Krisette and April to El Co to get all the stuff. Later, picking up graduation ticket from Aaron. Then to IMB I go. I haven't been there in a week. I feel bad.
Tuesday: THS Class of 2009 Graduation Ceremony! What am I doing after? I have no idea. Going home and sleeping I guess.
Wednesday: ...? What am I doing? O_O IMB @ 6 PM :P
Thursday: The Seven (minus Fabian who is all the way in MONTEREY. JERK :[ ... ) 's photo shoot from 3-5PM. Not sure what else to do. I may have to extend my hours T^T
Friday: One Year Anniversy. I can't believe Aaron and I have been together almost a year. It's almost surreal considering that we have dated before and it only lasted half a year, in which that half is not even mutual feeling from him... okie I'll stop there... I don't even know if he and I are going to be doing anything... one of these days I'm making him plan something... :(

To be honest, I can't wait for summer school to start so I can be busy again. I like being busy because it gives me an excuse to get out of the house, and I get to learn. I like learning. I also get to see my friends, whom I was reunited with on Friday. I missed them dearly! We haven't been together since... March. Indeed it has been way too long.

vague things to get off my chest: I never knew it would this sort of thing could happen...again. Perhaps I don't know enough to say anything. I think its too soon, but I'm not going to wait for more progress. I want it to be gone. I'm sorry. Forgive me, please. I didn't mean for it to occur once more. You know that I love you, and only you.

more vague:
10 Things [I should have said]

1. You have no idea how much I'm going to miss you. It's not going to be the same...
2. If I wanted to design a house with a secret passage way, how would I design that and call that out?
3. I'm sorry I'm so fat.
4. I've missed you!
5. Can you teach me to play violin?
6. We should jam some time.
7. I think there's something wrong...
8. This can't be happening, because it shouldn't be happening. Especially with YOU. And he warned me too!
9. Don't let me down again...
10. It may not be a big deal to you, but it is to me.

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Wednesday, June 10, 2009
I finally said good bye to my inital major, and all of its essentials. One of them would be Darin. Only Architecture buddies for 2 semesters (a year), and, I must say, he made it worth my while there. I'm going to miss him a lot, especially with the random conversations on fail blog... yeah. At least he isn't dead. Then I would be very sad. LOL....
next stop, nursing! (?)
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