Monday, November 30, 2009
I don't want to sleep because it will bring me a day closer to finals, and a day closer for my psoriasis to act up and make me itch.

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(Mercury)

Can anybody find me somebody to love?
Each morning I get up I die a little
Can barely stand on my feet
Take a look in the mirror and cry
Lord what you're doing to me
I have spent all my years in believing you
But I just can't get no relief,
Lord!
Somebody, somebody
Can anybody find me somebody to love?

I work hard every day of my life
I work till I ache my bones
At the end I take home my hard earned pay all on my own -
I get down on my knees
And I start to pray
Till the tears run down from my eyes
Lord - somebody - somebody
Can anybody find me - somebody to love?

(He works hard)

Everyday - I try and I try and I try -
But everybody wants to put me down
They say I'm goin' crazy
They say I got a lot of water in my brain
Got no common sense
I got nobody left to believe
Yeah - yeah yeah yeah

Oh Lord
Somebody - somebody
Can anybody find me somebody to love?

Got no feel, I got no rhythm
I just keep losing my beat
I'm ok, I'm alright
Ain't gonna face no defeat
I just gotta get out of this prison cell
Someday I'm gonna be free, Lord!

Find me somebody to love
Can anybody find me somebody to love?

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The half of the story of my relationship.
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Friday, November 27, 2009
Everything turned sour at the end, but then again ,it was out of my control.
And yet, here I am, still crying over a mistake he made.

I wish I was back to watching Cirque du Soleil, watching the trickster spin his perfect pirouettes, the three funny men laughing and flicking off the live band, the acrobatics, the clowning, and back to watching something that took my breath away and sent me on hours of bliss and amazement.

If only I feel that way now.
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Thursday, November 26, 2009
Before I say anything else, I would like to say, "Happy Thanksgiving!" I hope everyone is very thankful for what and who they have. I know I am :).

Now onto bigger news ...

MY COUSIN IS GETTING MARRIED!

MY COUSIN-IN-LAW IS HAVING A BABY BOY!

OMG!

at Tito Boy's house, we were watching the proposal video. It was so cute! Kuya Aljay surprised Ate Christine from behind and gave her a bouquet of roses with a card that read "will you be mine forever". She turned around looking at her friends confused, then Kuya got down on one knee and showed the ring. and of course she said yes 8D . They've been dating for 6 years! The ring is so beautiful! It was on big diamond in the middle, then two smaller diamonds on the sides of it. All the titos were making fun of Kuya Aljay, pretending to cry saying "WHAT TOOK YOU SO LONG?!" but yes :) We have a wedding coming up in 2011! :] So happy for Kuya Aljay and Ate Christine! ^_^!!
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Wednesday, November 25, 2009

This isn't your typical circus.
It was like something you could see in a dream,
it was different, daring, breathtaking, nerve racking.
There are so many words to describe this, and yet I can't think of anymore.

I want to get the soundtrack so bad.

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Monday, November 23, 2009

I always had this anxiety when I am standing in front of someone's door. It doesn't matter what door it is, and who is on the other side, I always get these swarms of butterflies in my stomach, and they can't seem to fly in one direction. It's happened a lot of the times. I have always anchored myself in front of the door and I would stare at the knob, and every little swirling detail from the bottom of the door, through the obscured glass, and the 4x4 header above. This happens a lot, especially at friend's house. To those of you who's house I have been to, yes, this is what I do . I would stand there and stare at the door for a good 2 minutes until I can finally work up the courage to ring the door bell. This isn't normal, is it?

No, I don't think I am afraid of doors, I just find doors uncomfortable.
There's something wrong, isn't there?
Please tell me I'm not the only one who feels this way.

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Saturday, November 21, 2009

2 hours to get there
1 hour to drive and walk about the USS Midway
1 hour to walk around his housing area & have some indecisive problems.
2 hours to get back home

The longest drive I have done & the shortest amount time spent in a city I had no idea how to get around in.

Hey you.
If you ever find this
and reading this,
I just have one thing to tell you.

It was worth it.

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I'll explain tomorrow. For now, I must sleep. Good night!
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Friday, November 20, 2009
I guess I shouldn't be so nice all the time. Today, a 30-yr old-ish Indian guy asked me for my number. I wanted to scream "RAPE" and run. I simply told him no, and left. I'm glad I had an alias ready today.

maybe i should have told him that i'm meeting my boyfriend...
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my shoulder hurts.
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Nigel and I visited the Queen Mary today. It was the first time I have ever been on an enormous cruise ship like that. I wonder if that's how people felt when they boarded teh Titanic (and before it sank and the many people drowned). It was a very vintage ship. I kept hearing old songs through the intercoms and such. I felt like I was in Fall Out Three or Bioshock. I was just waiting fora Big Daddy and a Little Sister to come out and attack me. Not the best thing in the world to happen to me. Nigel and I felt the same vibes when we entered the engine room. The propelor box was the most eerie area to be. Was there water, or not? I don't know. I kind of freaked out because I didn't knwo We tried to do a spoof of the whole Titanic moment when Rose was being held by Jack on the end of the ship as if they were flying. It was kind of hard if Nigel is singing the theme of the movie "Pearl Harbor" instead of the Titanic "MY HEART WILL GO OOONNN".

There was also a Wedding going on the ship. I find that to be pretty romantic. Oh well.

Maybe one day I'll try to

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Thursday, November 19, 2009
THE GREEN-EYED MONSTER HAS APPEARED! What will you do?!


A. Fight back! Time to face the music!
B. Throw a PokeBall at it!
C. Deny that there is a green-eyed monster.
D. RUN AWAY. YOU DON'T NEED THIS SHIT.


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*brother watches the dance sequence from 500 days of summer*
Brother: He got laid, didn't he?
Kat: What? No, he prolly is just happy that he's in love with her.
Brother: Achie, no guy is ever that happy to walk out into the real world and sees a cartoon bird. He's either taking drugs, or he got laid.

My brother's a little strange.
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Wednesday, November 18, 2009
They're not as great as the dates I have with Aaron, but they're...do-able I guess. Night doesn't really treat me as nice as Aaron does. LOL.

Translation of "Date With the Night": It originated from the song "Date with the Night" by Yeah Yeah Yeahs. I've used this term to explain that I have to pull an all nighter for school.
It's quite the funny term.

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posted by Kat at 11:35 PM | 0 comments
I found an unoriginal pen/artist name I can go by.
I think its pretty obvious.
But then again, I kind of like it.
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Tuesday, November 17, 2009
http://games.adultswim.com/schizophrenzy-adventure-online-game.html

The only game I like to indulge when I'm attempting to study.
I love this game.
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Sunday, November 15, 2009
I don't understand why I am so excited. For some reason, I'm suddenly enjoying Anatomy. Maybe because I've found that light at the end of the tunnel and starting to get all cocky that I will get a B and it might help my GPA? Probably not. It could possibly be because I finally passed one exam and one quiz in Sociology. Finally, my studying is paying off. Possibly because school is almost ending? I would certainly hope so. Or is it because my fever is going down?

Maybe getting that jittery feeling inside is something I need more. Not the nervous kind, the excited kind. It was kind of that same feeling when I got a B on my muscle lab exam. All that hard work is paying off, and you're beginning to understand things. There's also that feeling that you can do anything. Invincible. It doesn't match the same high I feel after performing music with my friends, but it is pretty close. I think if I keep up this enthusiasm, maybe I will do well.

We'll see.

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Saturday, November 14, 2009
Thanks for using my laptop while you were sick, brother. You really know how to fuck up everything right now.
posted by Kat at 6:33 PM | 0 comments
Little girls don't know how to be sweet girls.
Mama didn't teach me.
Little boys don't know how to treat little girls.
Daddy didn't show me.

Face down, on top of your bed.
Oh why did I give it up to you?
Is this how I shoot myself up high,
Just high enough to get through?

Again, the false affection.
Again, we break down inside.
Love save the empty.
Love save the empty, and save me.

Sad boy, you stare up at the sky
When no one's looking back at you.
You wear your every last disguise;
You're flying, then you fall through.

Again, the false attention.
Again, you're breaking inside.
Love save the empty.
Love save the empty, save me.
Love save the empty.
Love save the empty.

Stars feel like knives,
They tell us why we're fighting.
Storm, wait outside.
Oh, love, hold us together.

Love, save the empty.
Love, save the empty.
Love, save the empty.
Love, save the empty, and save me.
And save me.
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Friday, November 13, 2009
I realized how strange I can be. I don't understand why I do not like to say hello to my grade school classmates (not like Nigel, Krisette, Shaun, April, etc.), but I will add them on facebook? I don't understand myself sometimes. I see some of them at school, and I still say to a few of them. But for some strange reason, if I go to the mall, I pray I don't see anyone I know. That goes for people I know in high school too (not my actual friends...just people whom I talked to? It is hard to explain). I don't know. Maybe I am just really shy? My mom tends to bring this up a lot anyway...

I don't know why I am suddenly struck with homesick (Philippines). Maybe because the Christmas and New Years is coming up, and I kind of miss being there to celebrate new years with all the fireworks and food with my cousins in the PI. I guess I kind of also miss Boracay. I can't help it. I was from there.

The Holiday season is picking up, as well as the weather too. I feel like I should be baking Christmas cookies, drinking egg nog and bundled with blankets. It's been pretty cold here, and I kind of miss the fall weather. On the other hand, I'm enjoying the trees turning into the dark bloody red color. Very beautiful color. I need something hot and peppermint to drink now...

Oh.
The light at the end of the tunnel has revealed itself. I will strive to get that B in Anatomy.

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Wednesday, November 11, 2009
I think I want to participate in the Honors Student Research Conference.
I'm not too sure why I decided to do this, but it says it is one of things that can help me on my college application or something like that. So I will try it out. Maybe I could ask my Psych teacher from summer to help me because I did a research paper on MPD. Maybe that'll help me a lot. I have to ask him to be my mentor. It just reminds me of something like that kid asking Mr.Miyagi to help him to train. Hm...
I'll ask.
We'll see where this will take me.
I'm a public speaker type, but I kind of want to do this. LOL.
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Tuesday, November 10, 2009
STEVE TERADA!! WHY DO YOU SAY "HELLA"?! T________T
YOU MAKE ME SAAAD.
but its okie.
I'll accept it and move one LOL
eventually...
posted by Kat at 10:15 PM | 0 comments
I feel like Tom from (500) Days of Summer.
Vagabond by Wolfmother is playing and I have my triangles and T-Square out.
I'm ready to draw buildings again.

Arette: Paint your room w/Chalkboard Paint so you can point those buildings and I'll help in drawing cute little birds on the wire.
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"I take one one one cuz you left me and
two two two for my family and
3 3 3 for my heartache and
4 4 4 for my headaches! and
5 5 5 for my lonely and
6 6 6 for my sorrow and
7 7 for nonono tomorrow and
8 8 I forget what 8 was for! and
9 9 9 for a lost god and
10 10 10 10 for everything
everything everything everything!!!"
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Monday, November 9, 2009
4 Classes
14 Units

Monday:
Geography 5 Honors 1:30-2:55 PM

Tuesday:
Math 150 (Elementary Statistics) 8:00-10:05 AM
Chem 21 A (Organic Chemistry) 11:OO-12:25 PM
Philosophy 3 2:OO-3:25 PM

Wednesday:
Chem 21A 9:3O-12:45 PM
Geography 5 1:3O-2:55 PM

Thursday:
Rinse and Repeat Tuesday's schedule.

I wasn't kidding when I said weird.
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So...
I think I did well. O_O
Its the light of the end of the tunnel!!
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Sunday, November 8, 2009
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Saturday, November 7, 2009
El Camino has cut 600 class sections TOTAL.
There used to be at least 6 Chem 21A classes offered at Elco, but now we only have 3.
This will be the last year El Camino will offer Winter Session, which sucks balls.
I'm scared that I will not be able to transfer out of here onto time to get into MSMC's nursing program.
Good job, El Camino! Way to hold everyone back!
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Friday, November 6, 2009
I kind of wish I was all dolled up in lolita so I could go to PMX.
But due to issues and school, alas, I cannot :(
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Thursday, November 5, 2009
Why do you have to be so hot?
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Wednesday, November 4, 2009
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Sunday, November 1, 2009
Sitting together
Tangled in each other's arms
Hold each other
Hoping to never let go.
Hearts beating at different beats
listening
Don't look at the clock
You don't have to go yet
So tired
Ready to fall asleep
2 minute nap?
I can get used to this feeling
being so close to you
asleep on your shoulder
I missed this feeling
of being very close.
Leaving you will just get harder and harder.
Goodbye for now.
At least until I see you again.
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