Saturday, April 30, 2011

So, guess who I met today/yesterday?
For those of you who don't know, this is Jay Park, former 2PM member and now solo artist. Maybe some of you know him from Ryan Higa's video "Bromance"? Or if you went to ISA 2010, then yeah. He was a performer :)
Anyway, I was lucky enough to meet him today, along with 2 members (Hyosung and Jieun) from Secret and a brief hello to U-KISS' Eli!

uhm, I don't have much to say about my encounter with Jay Park. From what I remembered from his twitter was that he was really jet lagged, so I could only assume that he was really tired. When I first saw him, my friend and I were slow to go up to him. I didn't recognize him at first; I guess you could say we were slow to respond? Hahaha. Yeah. He got to sign for one person and told everyone "Let me eat first! I'll come back!" and the small group dispersed and he left. My friend and I saw him a second time when he came back, a few people stopped around him and my friend and I walked over to him. He looked really tired after coming back from eating. He signed my notebook, almost spelling my name wrong, but I didn't mind hahaha. He got it right though. Then I asked him "Oppa, can I get a picture with you?" and he said "Sure, just a quick one." So I took a picture with him. The original photo was actually darker, so I brightened it up (and added a watermark. This was the only picture I took WITH a Korean Idol. Boy, am I happy). The third time I saw him he was walking back to the elevators. After that I just said "Hi Jay-Oppa!" and he waved. There were more people around that time, so yeah, more screaming girls hahaha.

I'm taller than him. Jay Park was the shortest member of 2PM, but I didn't realize that he'd be that short (if I'm taller than Jay Park, does this mean I'm taller than Lee Kikwang and Kim Jonghyun? Yang Yoseob too? Oh jeez LOL). He looked really skinny, too. I mean, he does have muscle (that boy hoars out his abs so much, I don't even...), but compared to Eli, who is pretty muscular, Jay was skinny. Kind of want to feed him ( I want to feed Dongho too). Nevertheless, he was hot close up LOL (I'm being honest here guys). I was pretty surprised by how calm he was when meeting the fans. He was polite and willing to take a quick picture. There was a part when a fan went to Jay asking for a picture. Jay said the same thing he said to me about the picture and posed. The fan's friend said "I don't know how to use this!" and Jay said "Then no, I have to go." I guess he was pretty straightforward too when it came to that. It wasn't harsh, but it was a firm response. When I asked Eli for a picture he said that he couldn't because he was in a rush, but he had enough time to just sign. It was, I guess a little more gentle than the way Jay said it? I don't know. Haaah.

Well, it was a fun day. Last minute with the whole "WHAT THE HELL DO WE DO" and getting lost, but it was fun. I had fun. Good experience. Maybe I'll get lucky next year? We'll see.

PS- I wish I saw G.NA! I heard she's a real sweetheart!
PPS- All of the U-KISS members are really handsome in real life.
posted by Kat at 12:23 AM | 0 comments
Tuesday, April 12, 2011
Just give it to me quick
Are you coming home?
Don't dance around it
Don't mumble please. Don't tell me things. Don't avoid the subject, just tell me already. Answer me.

I need to hear this
I chose you long ago
Have you chosen me yet?
I always picked you. Not sure if you picked me for the right reasons anymore. Hell, I don't know why you even bothered...

I'm starting to wear thin and find it harder to forgive
Every time you let us slip down your list of priorities
Not sure about forgiving, but I was just really..passive? Yes, you did let us slip down YOUR list of priorities. Was there just one day where you could have stayed behind and video chatted with me? Was there one party you could have just not gone? Did you even miss me as much as I missed you?

I'm waiting for you to say you're here to stay
But darling, if you know that it's through
You can't keep doing what you do
If it's time to let go of you
Why do you keep hanging onto me when you feel differently? You shouldn't have done that... you can't keep doing that... I should have let you go a long time ago. So...long.

Now please don't take this wrong
You know I want you
But don't think I won't move on
...aaaand I'm trying lol
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I can get by on my own
I'll stand without you
Look how I have grown
I've gotten better, but I guess this is just one of those moments where you find something that reminds you of what happened.

I'm starting to wear thin and find it harder to forgive
Every time you let us slip down your list of priorities
you really did let us slip down your list of priorities.

I'm waiting for you to say you're here to stay
But darling, if you know that it's through
You can't keep doing what you do
If it's time to let go of
Should've told me sooner. should've told me sooner.
I should've done it when I thought this was all a mistake.
And it was. It really was...

You once whispered words to me
Wondering if anybody loved each other like we do
I guess that's not enough for you
Tell me or I'm going to let you go
If it's time to let go of you
Was it enough? I did so much, was it not enough? Was it not enough to keep you? To make you stay? To keep feeling the same way you say you did? If you knew how you felt about her... then you should've told me sooner. I should've let you go when I had that eerie feeling; that eerie feeling that all of this was a mistake.

More lyrics:

Shouldn't have pushed for something he didn't want anymore.
Should've believed going through all that was a mistake.
It was a mistake.
I didn't deserve to cry at night when I felt like he didn't want me.
So much damage, and I'm still the only one that realizes it.
You never will.
Not that you notice anyway.

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posted by Kat at 11:17 PM | 0 comments
Wongfu is making a new short film. So far, the synopsis of the preview says:
"The most unfortunate fact about a relationship that doesn't work out, is the inevitable path both parties are on to become strangers. Many relationships follow a general path, through a set of different stages, one that brings two strangers together, takes them through a period of deep emotions and meaningful experiences, then returns them to where they began."

I guess... I kinda wish I had something like this a whole year ago? LOL Hah. Talk about timing. Then I just found Kina Grannis' song "Cambridge." I don't know. Once again, I feel wish that I found this song long ago. Hang on, I'll dissect them right now--

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posted by Kat at 11:10 PM | 0 comments
Monday, April 11, 2011
My future? It went out the window the day after my birthday.
I'm not sure what my next step is.
I can't even talk about it because it makes me so uncomfortable, like I'm reminded of my failure or something.
Dropping OChem was my choice and at the same time, I didn't really have much a choice since I was failing.
Nursing was never my first choice, but I'm not good at anything else.
I don't even know where to begin again...
posted by Kat at 9:41 PM | 0 comments