Friday, November 30, 2012
That awkward moment when you sort of feel like you belong, but at the same time you still have to work to through the steel door just so you can "be" one of them. This exclusivity makes me sad. We don't like it. I guess we're just luck we have each other.

I think I'm at the point where I just want to be left alone sometimes. As much as I love everyone, I just want to be alone sometimes. I wish I had more times to spend with people and have some time to myself. I guess I can experience this whole "vacation days" while I'm off.

Sometimes, I wish I was better off not knowing. I wish I wasn't in the middle and I wish everyone could just get along.

Respect isn't there.

Maybe this entire thing is a complete joke. It's a joke and no one is laughing.

I miss my creative outlets so much. I feel empty and sluggish without 'em. Going to need some serious flute time when finals are done.

I need to sleep. I have service marathon tomorrow. Then day 2 of service marathon and the DCM.

Some nights, I don't know anymore.
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Friday, November 23, 2012
Yesterday, I got to see my niece and nephews and got a chance to play with them. I got to relive my childhood with my brother as we played heart and soul on the piano. Then I taught him the transition from heart and soul to twinkle twinkle little star.

8 years ago I wanted to end it all. 4 years ago I didn't want to live. 2 years ago I wasn't sure what I was going to do with myself because of my brother. 

I'm really glad to still be alive to see all of this. Always thankful for everything around me. 
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