I talked to Kevin about it last night. He's one of the few I didn't run to first when I needed someone to talk to. I feel bad, but I had to call Mimi first. He says that he's proud of me that I'm not blaming myself, and that I can finally stop crying over things. He said that I should have saw this coming, which I did, and that to never get back together with him. He's glad that I erased everything of him right now. He also said that if he sees him, he'll take his glasses and break them. I told him that he can do whatever the hell he wants, coz I don't care anymore. As much as I love him and care about him, I will no longer defend him. Which brought me to this:

I defended him when people told me that I could be happier with someone else and I could deserve better. I defended him when people said he wasn't doing enough and saying to me "I don't know how you deal with it." I should have listened, and now I can no long defend him what he has done wrong. And you know what, that's fine with me. I can't guarantee his safety anymore. Whatever happens to him after what happened between him and I, for all I know, he probably deserves it. I hope someone breaks his heart so he knows how it feels, and I feel sorry for the girl he likes. She has no idea what she's going to have to deal with. I just hop at his end, he finally learns a fucking lesson.

Stay away from me. I don't need you anywhere near me. You were everything to me, now you're nothing, and I will show you that, once I recover. It shouldn't take so long this time.

Hello everyone, I'm back, and I'm as cynical as ever.

PS- I'm thankful for everyone that has been helping me through this. To those who actually know where I am coming from, who know how I feel, and who listened to me. The amount of support from your guys is so great, and my love for you all of you is infinite. Thank you so much. I promise I will listen better this time.